scene #1:

today at work, (i swear) customers were giving me weird stares + a regular customer exclaimed, ‘woah you went suntanning?’ *giggles* utterly embarassed. all’s well except my significantly red-der and darker face and right arm. and yes, it hurts (even as i change my clothings) :’( miserable.

scene #2:

scoring some free time after work, i immediately dashed to challenger to replace the newly bought thumbdrive my dad got me. complete carelessness on my part, left it in the school’s lab and of course someone stole it. who could resist my brand new hot pink thumbdrive with pictures and songs inside *facepalm*

scene #3:

then as i await dinner, i didn’t have the drive to do anything. a string of thoughts followed: how i let hell break loose without an intensely stressful environment. re: jc life re: mr sabar re: constant reviewing of results. then i compare the environment and i am right. we don’t review results, well actually class tests does not even count since it is the decision making exam once a year that will make or break you. you have the freedom to choose to attend class (or not). and well basically no one monitors you. i always told myself that i will not let such things befall on me + new year new beginnings. i strive for the betterment of myself but looks like i am letting things slip and fall through my fingertips. i sincerely believe it’s never too late, and well it’s january the twelve, i took 12 days to essentially wake up and i choose to see the positive side of this realisation. 

although it has not yet to happened on me, i have seen/heard enough to let my previous thoughts about my inability to succeed falter. I CAN DO THIS! SO many of my friends have done so why not me. it is about time i am…. _ _ (age censored) already. learn to say no to socialisation, return to my college days where i live in isolation and secretly enjoy that no kidding. i am a true blue geek so i need to embrace that. see you guys soon. such long post don’t come by often.

p.s have yet to bake/cook for the longest time…!! deprived?! i feel like i will just let myself indulge if i do so, so let me bake for you, you and you plz. :*

  1. cherylistumbling said: fighting it will only be harder. still luv you the way you are <3
  2. highknight posted this
4 months ago
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